When I woke up this morning I secretly wished it would be just like Saturday – the kids and I had a good time at breakfast, started devotions by a little after 9 and we were done with 3 subjects by before noon. Kristo had a happy heart and he was excited to work on his math and grammar drills even if it was a Saturday. He was so happy with how things went he even said “My brain feels so energized!” — Oh how I wish everyday was like that particular Saturday!
But then again, maybe not.
Today we all woke up half an hour later than usual, so we did our devotions while having breakfast to make up for that half hour. I reminded Kristo of how awesome Saturday was, hoping to encourage him to do his best in all his activities today so we’d be done by noon. I showed him the list of what we’re supposed to accomplish today and he chose to take his Science Quiz first. Wow. Okay.
I gave him 20 minute to work on this 15 item quiz. I’d look at him every now and then and I just felt that something was off, that his heart was heavy. Knowing him, the test wasn’t the problem – it was his heart, his attitude. I somehow knew that he’d hand over his test paper with just three or four items answered — and yup, I was right! I must admit to you that I was hurt, then I was worried and right before that feeling of disappointment set in I stopped myself, took a deep breath and sat him down on the couch. I asked him what the problem was. He said he doesn’t understand what’s going on in his heart. He agreed that something was off and he didn’t know what to do with it.
This isn’t something new for us. There would be times when he’d be great in the morning, all jolly and happy then by after lunch he’d be grumpy and upset as he finishes his work. I used to get all worked up about it coz I just couldn’t understand that shift in his moods. Lately though we’ve tried something else – and it’s the only thing that has helped us big time.
I told Kristo to go to his room, read his Bible and spend time talking to God. I encouraged him to ask God to help him change the condition of his heart because only God can help him do that. I also needed time to talk to God. I needed help big time.
When I went into Kristo’s room I asked him how he was. He said he just needed to spend 5 more minutes alone. He was on his bed and he had his Bible by his pillow. Sure enough, 5 minutes later he came out all happy and lighthearted. He said he was a lot better and he was ready to study again.
We didn’t finish by noon like I hoped we would. In fact, we were studying til 5 in the afternoon! We were pretty much drained after that last mental math activity (hello! Subtracting in the hundreds mentally! Eeeep!) But I wouldn’t trade today for a day like Saturday after all `coz yeah, today was filled with lots of challenges but it also gave us lots of opportunities to really ask God to help us and Kristo got to experience how God works first hand.
A lot of times we think studying is all about the brain, but what use is a brain full of information if the heart isn’t right? This is one of the things I love about homeschooling Kristo – we have the freedom to stop whatever we’re doing to get the heart right then everything else will follow and learning becomes a way of life rather than an obligation.
Oh yeah, and then there’s that “you’re the best mom!” line right after you make him do 4 pages of mental math (yes, in the hundreds!!!) plus that one time I told him off for goofing around in the middle of doing his math drills. That’s a pretty good sign, right?